Wow my friends and I are in some hipsters guy blog xoxo kids.com. LOL so WEIRD. Went to Das Racist and so many hipsters there. I mean hey they are cool with nice swag and I love some of their styles. But at one point they sat in the middle of the concert forming some sort of Koo ba ya circle type shit. Yea…. um.. no.
No its not about grad school. Just called my aunt and all her cancer cells are gone! I’ve been praying and have been worried ever since she had cancer. She no longer has to go to chemo.. woohoo! Thanks for answering my prayers God ; )
Thanksgiving by my Dad (side shout out to his hero Carlos Bulosan)
***writing this reminded me of the great FilAm writer Carlos Bulosan who wrote ’ America is in the Heart’. Yes, America is in my Heart and I shed a tear just remembering the struggles of our kababayan in America. We have come a long way, indeed and a lot to be thankful.!! Yes, young people- the streets that you stepped in now have carried the feet of our greatest generation!
Shall I hear the old foghorns again which
woke me up early mornings at Blake Street
as the ships grope on San Francisco Bay?
I can hear their voices from the Philippines
asking for money as if from short distance away.
Does money grow on our persimmon trees here?
Perhaps my daughter going to Bicol this December
will tell them when winter has started here
before she graduated that summer of 2009
when money fluttered down like autumn leaves
even as they work it. Whoever told them
that they will inherit the American dream
must be eating sour grapes harvested early
from Watsonville besides Salinas where they
rever Carlos Bulosan as if he is still alive today.
didn’t really mention it but I turned in my first grad school application this past monday. I’m relieved, excited and overall pretty nervous about it. I turned in my app early to apply for Scholarships since school is hella expensive ; ( If i get in, I will start school right when I move back home… no break man.. I want to start my career and not become complacent in Korea. I love it here but I don’t want to be stuck here like so many foreigners do. O man its crazy, everyone and their mama is going to Korea nowadays. Man when I applied I didn’t know anyone going and now it’s a hot market. I guess there’s no jobs at home? Come on Obama.. get on it… !! Ya finding job worries me but I’m trying not to victimize myself by it. The Economy is bad t but it’s also not an excuse. Gotta get on that grind. blah I’m talking and going off tangents to much. I’m thinking too much, but mostly, i’m ANTSY about grad school and my life after korea overall.
It’s weird when you are put out of your community and see how others view your ethnicity. Ya, I know and read that Filipino people are looked down upon in other parts of the world because they take low-paying jobs to survive. But it’s weird when the prejudice is no longer in paper but suffices in reality. Living in a overly materialistic and homogenous society, judgements and condescending remarks will occur. I’m fortunate enough to never experience such prejudice but doesn’t mean it still doesn’t hurt when I see it upon my people. Anyways, found out my sweet 3rd grader was half-pinay by my co-teacher. I asked her about it, speaking to her in broken Tagolog. But she denied it. Denied it because she was ashamed. Denied it because her Filipina mom told her not to tell mention her heritage to others. Denied it because in this homogeneous society she may be looked down upon.
"but oh it’s okay you’re not Filipino Filipino… and you are lighter skin and look kinda half white …so they won’t judge you as much"- new co teacher